Scared...

Okay.

Work is today. I spent the night at mom's because she wanted someone home with my little brother, she was going to be gone all night.

'Kay... sweet...

Not that I don't love my little brother and all, I just didn't move back home to be babysitting him everynight again so she can go out and party.

I'M Supposed TOO BE, but instead I'm stuck in once again a mundane loop that I can never escape forever.

Mind you, it's not like I wanted to be in constant party mode again too, that was way too much for me to take after awhile.

But I didn't move here to HOUSE SIT EITHER!

UGH✖✖

He's never HOME, he just leaves once she's gone and comes back at like 11pm, then leaves again before I'm awake. EVERYTIME.

Doesn't matter if it's 2 in the morning or 5 in the afternoon. He has woken up 10 minutes before me and left.

Ninja...

Like...

It's creepy.

AND BORING.

Oh well, I'm not over here every day, and it seems my sleeping.. oddness is gone with the wind.

Mother said I was lazing around the apartment and here most of the time. Late at night I just disappeared so she just guesses I went to my bedroom in the basement.

Her guess is as good as mine.

So the reason I'm scared..

moslyimjustfrustrated

I was waiting for my coffee, as I need more before I go to work in two hours. And I need to be awake. I was flipping through what I thought was one of my mother's cooking magazines, I wanted something NEW to eat for supper..

...foronce...

And all I saw was THREE...THREE recipes, and every other page was an AD for wine and all kinds of alcohol.

Oh and a pizza AD.

Can't have red wine without pepperoni and green peppers.

I tried to get my on the spot comedic genius running, and all could say was. "Wow, read through that and all you'll get is...

...

..

.

drunk...

.."

FUCK ME!

I'M LOSING MY COMEDIC WIT PEOPLE!!

THAT'S ALL I HAD LEFT BEFORE BECOMING FULLY BLAND AND ONE DIMENSIONAL!

Ahh..

Ahh..

Okay, it'll be okay, I just have to hold onto my dry humor on the INSIDE..

And all will be okay.

Dammit..

God..

fuck

Pickles... Come help me :C

 ++~HART

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