It's strange to feel this way.
Have you ever had one of those nights where you just say
"Fuck you everyone, it's 8:32 pm, I don't have work until late and I have nothing to do right now I'm going to bed."
And you have one of the best sleeps of your LIFE.
Yeah, it was nice.
Last night was that night for me, which was nice. I mean, it was either I didn't sleep at all for days on end, spent in paranoia and restlessness. Or I was sleeping all the time, and having black outs and could barely move a muscle.
It's nice. Very nice. The past few nights have been absolutely peaceful and calm. I even have some fun while I'm at work (God forbid, I didn't even know I could..)
An old friend even moved back into town yesterday. She was one of my best friends when I was kid and still here. And now I can finally spend some time with someone my age who I can get along with and enjoy a night outside of my apartment for once.
WHICH IS WICKED UUUHHHHH!!!!
Sorry, it's been awhile since I've been so at peace for once.
But, it's been getting me thinking.
That's how it always feels, the calm before the storm...
I can't help but feel like soon I'll be thrown into some kind of tornado of absolute hell and I won't even know what to do with it all.
And after ready everything that's been going on and how similar it all is...
God what do I even do..
Well, all I can do is hope it stays this way right?